Chatfest December, Day 4

[tifaching]

For disneymagics Which SPN character do you most relate to? As in, which one shares the most characteristics with you personally?

 

Hmmm, this is a tough one.  But, I’d have to say. Dean.

I internalize a lot.  Like, everything, really.  Someone asks me what’s wrong, I’m likely to say “nothing” even if something’s very wrong because, usually, it does no good to complain.  I hate to burden people with taking care of me, even if they wouldn’t see it as a burden at all.

I’m loyal and I love my family and friends but I can be real pain in the ass to them too.  I’m moody and have a very bad temper that gets the best of me all the time.  I’m not very nice, but I know this about myself and it doesn’t really make me feel better to acknowledge it.  And try as I might, I find it hard to change.  Still, if they ask me for help, I’ll be there with whatever they need.

I have lousy self esteem.  Nothing is good enough (fandom is my happy place because here I feel like I am good enough, what I do, what I write, my interactions with my flist) but in RL, I beat myself up all the time about what I can’t or don’t get done or what people think about me.

I’m tough.  I don’t back down and I’ll fight for what I want.  Not physically, though I would if I had to, but with everything else I’ve got.

I’m smart.  Not genius or anything, but I’ve got a decent brain and I love to use it.  However, research just isn’t my thing.  J

If I say I’m going to do something, I do it.  You can depend on me to get the job done.  It might take me a while, but it will be finished.  (something a few of my online friends might not believe, but trust me, I am working on the projects for you).

I don’t miss much.  I mean, nobody’s perfect, but I’ve got a job where mistakes can cost lives (not on the scale that Dean’s does but people trust me with their fur babies and I take that extremely seriously) and I’m very thorough to make sure nothing slips by me.

I don’t know.  I guess that could go for lots of people, but I’m going with Dean because I kind of have the get up and keep going mentality that he has.  Get out of bed.  Do you job.  Maybe have some fun after.  Go to bed.  Do it all again.  Not that my life sucks or anything, it doesn’t.  But it does feel like the same old same old all the time. 

Wow, that came out more depressing than I thought.  But when the character you identify with is Dean Winchester…..  If only I had his (early season) sex life.  J